Thursday, November 30, 2006
Memo of a Killer
Why is it do I get constant comments like 'freak' 'retard' 'bastard' 'fvcktard' 'fvcker'.(feel free to add to the list) NO, im not insulted, never once in my fvcking life. Just wondering am I borned like this, cause I seriously feel im acting normally, does this make me a perfectly healthy retard, or a unique personality just like any other person? Is there an influence that brought me up to get called constantly supposedly insulting names to some?
If you know my mind well, im sure u can agree im egoless like what Eden said when it comes to people reacting to my personality. Bastard-proof is the way I like to call it.
Maybe its an immunity that I adapted, a strength? or a weakness?
Yes, Im a delcared Racist against all indians I DONT KNOW YET.
Im interested in political propaganda, I find most German stuff cool including Hitler's character, I mean...seriously man, Nazism is so original though kinda evil.
So I have decided to come up with a list(incomplete one) to see what makes me. Dont get me wrong, im not in an identity crisis, just a penning down to see what usually go through my mind before I act or think.
Here are my influences I can think of:
MY CORE
-Family (Mum, Dad, Brother) I pride them for teaching me and letting me be what I am.
-The G-Unit (current clique in school) the fact that we can joke about anyone, anytime, anything, anywhere with little respect for our victims.
-My pass (Memories that plagues my mind, sweet,bitter or sour, they make me think carefully (most of the times XD) on what to do or react.
-Provides (The good life Dad and Mum worked for and share with me, paying for my fees and mistakes)
MY VALUES (heres an interesting one because I never thought of this till now)
- Dodge all you can (if you can skip it, then skip it. Yes I have gone overboard before and consequences are to be paid for. I dont consider myself a slacker, slackers do not exist, if you claim to be a slacker, then you cared enough to say so thus you arent.)
- Personality alteration (we talk diffrently to different people, teachers, parents, friends, strangers or online. I believe in communicating in your own different personalities. Be it your formal-self, casual-self or respecting-self, as long its not you wearing different shell. Maybe thats why I tend to be rude to my parents without noticing it.)
-Alternatives > Usual (This cant apply to all things, but stuff like music, the way I talk sometimes or even my form of humour, I try to find alternatives to make me happy)
My Shell
- Comfortable yet simple (yap, looking at my dressing since young, I dont want to be overdoing it for the sake of looking hip or fashionable except maybe my earring :)
- Secret sacarsm (I dunno why, but I enjoy sacarsm. I enjoy doing it on innocent ones, when someone gets paranoid, agitated or emo when they cant catch my sacarsm, to just stand back and watch them pissT. But if they catch it, its all fun and games. Just ask Dad)
My influence
- My playlist ( the music I listen to)
- Propagandas ( I love it on how manupilative these stuffs can get)
- Borat (haha hes jokes are so original)
- Cool catch phrases from anywhere (pick up and apply it)
- too many and too minute to list
Woot! Now lets put this up on wikipedia shall we kids?
I want to go for chilling session at anywhere this weekend. Sit, sip and slurr the night away. So can you bring me go out kai kai?
Artiste - Chicane
Song - Andromeda
Genre - House
Woot house music on my blog, take a chill pill yo.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
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